High Risk Investment

Everyone seems to have this inbuilt mechanism that attempts to protect us from being hurt. Although inevitable, it tries. We get scared, develop cold feet and mild cases of insecurity which stops us from making our declarations from fear of being  hurt, ridiculed or most importantly...having our feelings unreciprocated.

Just a few months back, i told the object of my affection that he was and has always been a high risk investment. We had about an hour and a half heated debate on the meaning of that one lil' statement. You see, when i said it, to me, it meant "it's all or nothing". If i let you in, if you come in, you could either make me very happy or really sad. You’d have the power to do both. We could end up being terribly in love or regrettably in hate. Ofcourse i was being a lil extreme but i guess when you're laying your cards out on the table, it's always gonna be touchy touchy :).

His reasoning was this "if something is a high risk investment then that's already a red flag. No one really wants to win big or lose everything" he said. He rationalised that a 50-50 split on investment makes it automatically appear more of an attractive prospect. But you gotta understand, he's an economist and i'm in management . When you're talking about buildings and bonds and stakes, its well easy to 50-50 it. Try to make a little but not lose alot in the process, Still have a fall back option.

With emotions i didn't think you could do that because i figured it meant at any one time, you're not giving your utmost best. Just like everything else in life, the minute you think something has failed or might fail, you’ve increased the chances of that exact thing happening. You hold back because you don't want to suffer a tremendous loss. By saving yourself, you wreck your chances of getting the ultimate experience.

I honestly believe it was a compliment to him actually for me to think of him in terms of being a high risk investment and still considering putting all chips in regardless. Shows how much in sync my mind and my emotions were. Granted they were at both extremes but one looked to protect by creating a bubble while the other was trying to be a little too carefree.

I figured he Rationalised things a bit too much. He probably assumed it meant he didnt have what it took to deliver or He wanted to be a win-win investment. You see, if your mind thinks your heart is hoping a little too much, it attempts to produce you with a reality check on how quickly things could go wrong and what exactly gets lost. On the other hand, if you follow your heart, you enjoy the moment. Regardless of how much you plan or hope or wish, tomorrow is very uncertain. Today is all you have, yesterday is so far gone.

Maybe that’s what he meant by 50/50. 

Follow your mind 50% and take pre-cautions by only unravelling your cards one by one as time goes by instead of laying it all on the table. It helps to take one step at a time and see what the other person is bring as well.

Follow your heart 50% and be open to being loved and giving love a chance. Enjoying a company different from yours, learning to trust someone. Discovering who someone really is and loving them more with every discovery made.

I hate to say it….he must love to hear it…but yeah>>>YOU WERE RIGHT BABES!! Not saying I was entirely wrong but I sure needed a change in perspective :). I definitely can appreciate the fact that it doesn't have to be all or nothing. Sometimes 50/50 is just what the doctor ordered !!!!!